So it has officially been 12 days since my last HSC exam (wow), meaning my last time wearing my school uniform, my last time stepping into the school hall, my last time stressing my guts out until uni, my last time seeing some friends and teachers. Pretty sad I know. In my experience, the whole exam period felt like it just went on and on and on, even though i knew deep inside that it was going to finish before i knew it, and all of a sudden, it did. I mean 4 weeks compared to 17 years of living, you do the math. If only i could have realised the reality of it before it happened. It’s ridiculous, 13 years of schooling, all leading to this one big hit of exams that can potentially dictate the rest of your life. That one ATAR number which your parents could ridicule you for the rest of your life (more so, if you have typical asian parents, which i undoubtedly do). I don’t know, i just find the whole thing stupid in a way, especially since it was the most daunting and painful experience of my life yet to date. The shit i put myself through, i just dont even know. I would probably base most of my stress and worries though on the fact that i knew how much pressure i was under since my parents and family have really high expectations, and i had so much fear in myself knowing that i may not be able to deliver to their standards. It was a sickening feel.
Any ways, now it is over and the four month break awaits. However, i’m only making myself believe there is only a one month break for now, since results come out in December. fuck.
If i could go back in time, and maybe re-live year 12, i would tell myself to be more consistent, not that i wasn’t, i mean i was consistent with the subjects i liked. i think that’s the problem. it would have been better to be consistent with every single subject you were doing since in the end they are all worth the same. Also, i would of told myself to revise revise revise! I cannot stress how important it is to constantly revise because that one night cramming will not get you far, i assure you. Also, if you have any dodgy teachers that don’t teach you shit, try and learn most of it your self or seek help from others as early as possible. Because, when it gets closer to the exam and you realise your teacher hasn’t taught shit to you, then you are fucked. Over all, just try your hardest and do not once give up. Also, as hard as it sounds, try and not procrastinate. Because you will have plenty of time for that afterwards.
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